What If....

I love the movie Letters to Juliet. There is a line in the script that says what and if are not scary words but put them together it changes everything. "What if?" "What if?" I ponder all the time about that "WHAT IF'S" I wonder what my life would be like if I never got pregnant with Danielle. Where I would be.

I like to think that I would have gone off to college and got a fancy degree and met a man and got married happily ever after...OR NOT...

What if....I went to college even though I had Danielle and leaned hard on my family to support me while I figured out my education....How would things have changed???

What if I tried a lot harder with my equestrian skills, and made a name for my myself in the horse world.  Would I be happier??

Always after I go through all the what ifs and imagine the twists and turns my life COULD have taken.  I come back to would I really, REALLY want a do over? No. I love my life. I love my girls. If I hadn't made all those choices and bends in the road I would not be where I am today. I have a loving family, two beautiful girls and Matt. Oh Matt. I am so blessed that I have that one. So, forget the what ifs.  I am so happy I have THIS.

Danielle's Hand and more boring updates for anyone that possibly cares

Well I guess I took a really long break from blogging. Life caught up and I forgot. Well to sum up poor Danielle's hand...Turns our that my baby girl needed hand surgery. She cut a nerve in her ring finger, and severed a tendon in her pinky finger. After 2 1/2 hours of surgery she is fine. She needs physical therapy to retrain her brain to have feeling in her finger. She is on the mend now THANK GOD.  I am so glad that it is over.

The girls main Christmas gifts were a 7 day trip to Hawaii in June!! We are all very excited about the pending trip. But that meant I needed to be bikini ready in about 6 months. SO I went on this crazy Diet called the "HCG" Diet. I lost 20 pounds in about 3 1/2 weeks. If you have never heard of it just google it. It is very intense and you are not allowed to work out at all while being on this diet because you are consuming only 500 calories a day!! CRAZY! It wont work for everyone because you need to be very strict on the calorie intake, but i stuck with it and I LOVE the results!!! Since I lost the weight, I am in the "Maintenance" phase. This consists of still making wise choices when it comes to food, and yeah I have to suck it up and work out.

I joined a gym. Now, I have never ever in my entire life been athletic. Some how the athletic gene skipped me, in my family of athletes. I hired a trainer to help me learn the ropes of what I am supposed to do at the gym other then run on a treadmill. So far it has been working and I have been maintaining the weight I have lost. I have even gained some muscle!!!! Seeing the results make me want to continue with it.

The girls are good....school, skating and such.....Matty is amazing as usual. I was talking about him the other day to a co worker and I litterly burst into tears just speaking about him. My husband is different. He is anti social, weird and keeps to himself. He is the complete opposite of me. But that is why I love him. He makes my life not normal and full of  surprises. He is funny, caring and so loving. Most people don't see that side of him. That side of him, is what made me fall head over heels in love with him. He took me and my girls and made us one big family. I get emotional when I talk about him, I really do know that I am damn lucky to have him.


Mylee's death anniversary is coming up and I am dreading it already. I miss that dog every day and even more when Morgan acts up. Oh well...life goes on.

Slice and Dice

*Warning*
There are some graphic bloody Photos below please read at your own risk

On Tuesday night - Danielle had quite a bit of homework to complete, so instead of going out to dinner with Dana and the boys we decided to stay in and have Chinese food. I just got home and Dana just arrived when Danielle screamed "MOM!" in that tone that just makes every mothers heart sink. She comes running down the stairs with blood gushing out of her hand.I look at it and O.M.G. It is cut bad and it is cut deep. I wrap a paper towel around it and Dana was grabbing ice when Danielle says to me, "Mommy I can't feel my Fingers." Dana and I both just stopped for like half a second, and then just continued on trying in to comfort her. I called my uncle who is an Doctor and told him to meet me at the ER. I found out from Danielle that the lid of  her fish tank cracked in her hands and sliced her fingers. Meanwhile, as we are trying to get out the door, Lily is running around the house HYSTERICAL! Screaming there is BLOOD!! MY SISSY! Oh the drama....Well to make a long story short, she needed 6 stitches, and she might have cut a tendon in her pinky finger. We will know for sure in a week when the swelling goes down. Life is never a dull moment that is for sure!!!

Before the Stitches

All Nice and Sewn up

Such a brave girl!!



It was so scary to see my baby in so much pain. I wanted to freak out so bad, but as all Mom's know we just can't. We have to be the brave ones to comfort our kids. Danielle's Dad has nick named her Slice and Dice and that is going to stick for a while. :)

The Girls Skating

Enjoy These videos of my girls doing what they love.

Weekend Events

-Danielle and Lily had some ice skating this week. It was such a long weekend. I am very happy to be done with it though.  

-Lily is obsessed with  Christmas. She if a firm believer in Santa. I tried a couple months ago to come "Clean" with her on Santa, and she FREAKED out and called me a liar. O.M.G. I am in trouble. Now she is into this "Elf on a Shelf" doll. All the kids at school have one and she "asked Santa" for it and she did appear at her dad's house. What this elf does is sit on a shelf and report to Santa on her behavior every night. So the next morning she is in a new spot. She is not allowed to touch the elf or the magic will disappear. This means every single NIGHT I have to move this little thing to new spot. I am going to forget one night I just know it.

-I feel like I am screwing up Danielle. She seems to always be in trouble, my dad called me to complain that I while I allowed Danielle to do her homework in his office this weekend, she trashed it. Left crumbs everywhere and started going through his things. It is so embarrassing to get a call from your father saying that he is mad at your kid.  I should have double checked his office, but I was in a hurry, and again I expect too much of her. Or do I? Shouldn't she know to not touch other people things? Oh she is in trouble today.

-Maybe I am not screwing Danielle up to much because I did an email from one of the girls mothers who Danielle was unkind to thanking me for having Danielle write to her daughter. 

-I have one weekend off from skating and then next weekend we are back at it again in full force.

-Oh I found out that all the Christmas cards I got printed, the main photo, Jacks w"thingy" is hanging out!!! I will see when I get the card just how bad it is. It is very funny though. 

Family Time

Once Matt and I got married, I wanted to do a Christmas Card photo. Last year we didn't have the energy to do it. We had JUST gotten married and Matt hates his photo being taken, and I didn't have the heart to ask more of him since he was such a trooper for the wedding photos. This year, I made it happen. I arranged for my BFF to come over to the house with her brand spanking new camera and take pictures of us at the house. I wanted to have Morgan be in the photos, but she is so out of control it was not going to happen. Jack made the cut and behaved like a perfect gentleman. He was very confused as to what was going on, but the shots turned out amazing.

I already have the cards being made and I am so excited to send them out. We are also very busy with the holiday skating season. The girls are in so many events, that I am worried about my time management.

In sad news, my grandma fell 3 weeks ago and broke her hip. She needed 3 pins to put it back in place. My life yet again revolves around visiting her. My Grandpa wants a constant vigil at her beside. The whole family is doing the best the can. I am hoping she will be home for Christmas. I try to not think to far in advance and do one day at a time.

I hope you enjoy these photos because we had a BLAST taking them.

Being a Mom of a Pre Teen is not fun...

Danielle is 11. She is a pre teen. Being a parent of a pre teen is not easy. There is drama. LOTS of drama. Two weeks ago there was some drama at school and some of it involved her. It all started with Disneyland. There was a school trip for all the middle schoolers to go together and the kids got to arrange the small groups they wanted to be with for the day. Why the KIDS got to select the group is beyond me. So of course there were hurt feelings and tons of drama. I was very disappointed in my daughter for the way she handled things, but she is 11. I should have expected her to handle things like an adult, but I did. I made her write apology letters to the girls who she hurt but I think the damage was already done.

I wish girls would not be so mean. I wish I had better experience with this sort of thing and be able to guide her better through these times. I know there will be more trying times once we get into high school, but hopefully I will learn so I can be a better parent to Lily.