Some hard times and some not hard times

About 2 weeks ago my grandma fell. After much drama and hospital stays, we now know that she has broken her butt. Broke Butt Grandma is what my Uncle is calling her. Due to her broken ass she needs 24/7  care. My Grandpa is not able to do it so she is an a rehab home near to all of the family. I plan my days around her. Making sure that I see her at least once a day for about an hour. It is hard on all of us but I am really hoping that she pulls through and we can get past this. It is really hard to see my Grandma down like this. She was always so active and full of life. It also has me thinking about growing old and I am scared shitless of it. Not the dying part - but being so..dependent on others. To not be able to go to the bathroom on my own...I really hope that I wont ever have to deal with that. That I just pass away in my sleep. I do not want to be a burden on my kids. Ok enough of this on to much lighter news:

I was able to go shopping last week and get some much needed work clothes. Yayy! Retail therepy was amazing.

Danielle had her 5th grade graduation and I am now the parent of a Junior High Student. Wow. She is not a baby anymore. She is a young lady and I am so blessed to be a part of her life.

I saw the Hangover 2 and it was everything I had hoped for and then some.

As I am writing this, my sweet Little Morgan is curled up next to me. When she is good like this it just melts my heart.

Here are some photos of that I am very late in posting but better late then never!!

Matty with Danielle at Disneyland 

Matty and Morgan (I LOVE THIS PHOTO!)

My Jacky

Seriously when did she get this big?

She is so adorable

I remember

A couple of my blogging buddies have posted some "I remembers" and I would like to copy them.

-I remember being 3 years old and my new brother coming home from the hospital and feeling the stab of jealousy because I was not the center of attention any more.

-I remember being 4 years old late at night talking to my brother Kenny, and trying to teach him how to talk.

-I remember playing for hours with Kenny and Kyle in the backyard. Playing on our jungle gym and the dogs running around us.

-I remember my horse backriding days. Getting up at the crack of dawn to just hang out at the barn all day. The smell of leather and horse...The complete and utter joy I had whenever I was riding. My sadness when I was told I was unable to ride anymore that it was just too expensive. My bitterness towards my third brother for taking my joy away. The guilt for even feeling that, and my overwhelming love for him as the years went by.

-Vacations with my family. Always full of drama but the best memories I have are of them.

-I remember the day that Kailey was born. How beautiful she was and how happy I was to have a sister finally!

-I remember all my days of Biola Youth Arts. How I thought I was so freaking cool to perform on stage.

-I remember the day I found out I was pregnant with Danielle.

-I remember the day I found out I was pregnant with Lily

-I remember the day I knew that I was getting divorced and what a failure I thought I was.

-I remember that I while I was getting divorced I found out how strong I was.

- I remember when Kenny moved in with me for a summer and it was one of the best summers of my life.

- I remember the day I met Matty for the first time and I thought he was an arrogant asshole. I was so wrong about that one!

- I remember the day Matty brought home Mylee after we had lost Sandee

-I remember picking out Jacks from the Shepherd rescue and how it wasnt really us picking him out but him choosing Mylee.

-I remember the day Matty proposed

-I remember my wedding day to Matt.

- I remember the day Mylee left us.

- I remember the day Brady was born.

I am looking forward to make many more memories!

It's been way too long

I took a blogging break. Sorry.

-Danielle is going to be in 6th grade in 13 days. O.M.G

-Lily is going to be in 2nd grade in 13 days. O.M.G

-We took a fun trip to Disneyland, and had an amazing time. Lily only had one meltdown over Space Mountain and she will get on it next time I am there.

-Speaking of Disneyland, When are they going to reopen Star Tours??? That was one of my top 3 favorite rides..Hurry up!

-My nephew is the cutest - I am beyond in love with him.

-It hurts when you see someone you love act the way you did like 10 years ago. Making stupid mistakes, and not understanding that it is YOU being the stupid and immature one not everyone else.

-Blood does not define family. I have been blessed to have such an amazing extended family that is not blood related.

And here is a photo since no blog is really complete with out one....

Miss Lily Pants and Morgan

Danielle and I on Easter

I am gonna Kick some ASS...

So, Danielle tells me yesterday while we were driving home, that there has been some drama in the 5th grade...This boy named Elliott said to one of Danielle's friends "I only SAID I like Danielle because I felt SORRY for her." Ummm WTF? Many things came running to my mind and most of them were like this:@#%$!!! But I tried digging to find out what really happened...So Danielle used to like this boy Elliott and like most girls do she has moved on to another one - but I am guessing that this little punk is pissed. So he said something to another girl to repeat to Danielle. I asked Danielle why the girl said something and she said "Mommy he wanted me to know."

Danielle informed me that she was so mad at him and would not forgive him. So I tried to talk to her about not having to be friends...like ignore him, accept the apology etc...I get home and I am starting to get REALLY Mad! How dare he?? Well in about an hour and over some text messages, they are "friends". I know my daughter and she is not over it, and will never ever forget what he said.

I wont either!! I am steaming mad at this punk ass!!  How could be so mean to my sweet baby angel??? Next time I see him, I am soooo tripping him.

Loosing it.

I have been feeling so out of it. Not organized, not put together, and behind everything. I need to pull it together man. Between Volleyball games, ice skating tests and competitions, I am LOOSING IT!! I need to get my shit together and fast because I do not have the TIME to loose it. Here are some little updates:

-Danielle has 2 ice skatings tests next week and a competion this Satuday. Oh so does Lily. Great. 

-I saw my good friend Kellie for lunch on Sunday and I took Jack along. It is a dog friendly patio dining. He did great....until he saw a shaggy looking dog and decided the dog need to DIE. I got a very nasty look from the owner. Not my fault my dog hates your dog lady. Try brushing him and maybe my dog won't try to kill yours. I am just saying.....

-Matt has been working like a mad man on my backyard. He is making me a beautiful arbor. Lucky me. Matt is not working at the moment so he has also been helping me with the girls schedule. You would think with the extra help I am getting I would not be loosing IT. But I am...I am so thankful for him.

Back off ladies this sexy man is MINE!!

-I was talking with someone on what I would do with my life if I wasn't working at Pickwick...and honestly I don't know. I am seriously burned out on weddings. I am tired of them. Not all of them. Just MOST of them.

-My grandparents go their new doggy and he is beautiful and I love him.

-I love Brady too he is soooo freaking cute.

-Lily likes her eggs decorated

-I can hardly wait to see "Something Borrowed" I have read the book like 5 times and I am excited to see how it will look on the big screen. Speaking of movies - "The Host" by Stephanie Meyer is being mad into a movie too! I adored the book read it at least twice, and I am eagarly anticipating this one as well. I do have a long time to wait considering it does not get released until 2012.

-I got to play dress up in my wedding dress for my BFF's new business. She does set designs for vintage photo shoots and needed me to model in my dress. Lucky me.

-Hope I pull it together soon!!