Sunday, September 4, 2011

The Big Three O....

I turned 30. I never thought that I would being perfectly honest. It was just a large number that was so far away I never thought I would reach it. I started to get worried about hitting 30 when I turned 25. 25 was the perfect age. I was a couple years past 21 to and 5 years away from 30. If I could stop time it would be for sure at 25. However, I cannot stop time, and I did turn 30.

When the dreaded day came, it wasn't horrible. It really was just like any other day. I didn't feel 30. I still don't. I still feel like a child. I still feel sometimes lost in this world. I looked back on what I thought I would be if I did turn 30, and I guess I am where I thought I would be. Married with kids. I wish that I would have done more with my life, but I made choices at 18 that made my life turn out the way it did. You know what??? That is ok. I love my life, I love my kids, I love my husband and my family. My 20's were very hard but I am going to enjoy my 30's. I am hoping that Matty and I have a baby sometime soon. Oh 40's...Well...we will see how my 30's go.

1 comment:

  1. I never believed you'd make it to thirty either. I was actually banking on it for a while.